This is my blog about the difference I have made to my health and well being.  But I need to be clear I am not professing to be an expert or dismissing others illness and suffering that so many go through, but just telling you how I turned it around, I am hoping it will help you too!

For about 2 years I was going to various hospitals, some out of my area and too many appointments to even mention.  I was eventually diagnosed as having osteoarthritis, fibromyalgia, hyper mobility syndrome on top of the severe asthma I already knew I had suffered with for years.

Wow, that was quite a day, I had been suffering for so long and seemed to be going downhill, and nothing seemed to be improving.  I now had a diagnosis and it looked like that was it for the rest of my life.  I was only 43 at the time, talk about life begins at 40, mine felt like it was ended.

I knew how it was affecting my life, the pain was too much some days, it made daily living really difficult and as I single mum life was hard enough, but now making meals had to be planned so I didn’t stand for too long. I started to get in ready-made meals including mash potato as I couldn’t peel vegetables any longer, my hands were too sore.  I then had emotional guilt on top because his is my son’s favourite, and as much as he didn’t moan I felt bad.  Shopping trips with my daughter came to a stop too, as it was just too painful.  I would go to bed at night, but unable to sleep with the pain.  No matter what pain killers I took.  I tried changing my diet, as I thought maybe different foods made it worse.  But nothing seemed to help.

I am sure for those who also suffer I don’t need to say anymore, I looked well but felt dreadful and spent lots of time resting, whilst still trying my best to continue with normal life.

Everyday my family would ask how I was and my Mum bless her, was always trying to come up with new things to try.  Then the penny dropped I realised I was making it all worse.  I have done manifesting all my life, we all do it naturally.  But I knew the rules and knew I could manifest all I wanted by focusing on it, talking about it, visualizing it and really feeling it.  Because I was doing all this with my illnesses they were getting worse, the pain was growing and it the restrictions on my life were increasing too.

So one day, I told everyone to stop asking how I was.  I told them I would tell them if I needed to if it was important but other than that I was going to say – I was well, I felt great, I was pain free.  I was no longer giving my illness the time and energy in my life.

I am not saying this was easy, but I had to convince myself it was the way forward because I knew it worked with other areas of my life.

I started to do daily affirmations of “I am well” “ I am pain free”. I did them as often as I could, when showering, driving, watching TV, I just kept saying it in my head.  Even though at first I knew it was not true, but I had to turn this around and put my focus on being well, give out the right messages so the rest would fall into place.  I really didn’t want the other option of lots of different drugs.

Of course I work with my Angels closely too and they had a part to play in it.  I would ask them to help me get a good night’s sleep.  Take my pain away.   I would always ask them before reaching for the pain killers.  When at night I was lying there unable to get comfortable, I would ask Archangel Raphael to come in close and bathe me in his beautiful emerald green light.

It did not take so long and I started to improve slowly but surely.  I found I could do more, was not as tired, slept better and most of all the pain went less.  Until one day I found I am no longer in pain, that is not to say I don’t get aches and pains from time to time.  But I don’t pay any attention to them and rarely need painkillers now.  My children are delighted, as we are back to homemade mash and shopping trips.

I am not saying this will work for everyone but it worked for me and you have nothing to lose my giving it ago.