I have not been feeling to well recently and even took to my bed for a couple of day, totally out of sorts.  I have pondered how this happened as I believe we manifest everything including getting ill.

Consciously I know I would have not manifested getting ill, but subconsciously it is where is it all going on and how we manifest the things we don’t want.

Looking back I have worked out what I have done.  Conversations that have sparked feelings, feelings that have turned up as my reality –aka getting ill!

Still this is all great as knowledge is power and that means I can change things. I can be more aware in the future, learn from this and create better situations for myself, by having more control over my subconscious.

I also know The Upstairs have had their part to play in all this too and it is not the first time they have made me ill.  As I know I have also been going through what I call an upgrade.  My connections are changing and my spiritual development is fast tracking.

We really never do stop learning.  This is what I love with spiritual development just when you think you have got a greater understanding on it; the Upstairs teach you another lesson.  It is fantastic.

I am totally self-taught.  I have learnt to connect and trust The Upstairs as we work together.  This has not been an easy journey but one I have totally enjoyed every twist and turn has been a journey of discovery.

I am always busy and on the go, sometimes they just slow me down so I can be up graded.  I am not alone in this, it may well be happening to you too. When we are going to fast we miss things and dismiss things, put it down to something else.

We have to trust and it can be scary, there are times when even before a reading I think what if I can’t connect?  What if I have lost my connections.  Even though I know this is not possible as we can’t disconnect, we are always connected and always have been from day one.  Whether we are spiritual or not.  It is up to us if we use those connections.

Our ego holds up back, makes us doubt ourselves.

Often people compare each other’s abilities and want to learn to do what someone else does.  I can remember seeing a very gifted clairvoyant who channelled years ago and thinking I want to be able to do that as it was remarkable how her voice transformed when she channelled.

It was long after that I found I could.  Most of my work is channelled this is where spirit speak through you.  I do it all the time in a reading for example I have no idea what I will say just words coming flowing out.  I have no control over them.  Or, any memory of what I have said.  If it is Angels it is in my normal voice if it is spirit it is very croaky voice.  It took me a while to work out the difference and I can remember thinking at first it was nerves as every time I got on stage to deliver messages my voice went all broken.  I soon worked out it was just spirit as soon as I held the Angels back and allow spirit through my voice goes back to normal strength again.

I also channel by writing and typing.  All my cards, book, meditations and programmes have been channelled.  I just write or type away with no idea what I am writing The Upstairs take over.

However, the other day they must have completed my “up grade” and a new way to communicate with me that took me a bit by surprise

I was driving home; I often find driving a good place to connect.  No radio on just quietly go along when I felt I need to sing.  Now I am not a singer I like a singalong in the shower in the morning, but as for tuneful and holding a note not a chance.

Though on reflection neither can I in normal Amanda mode do poetry but when I am channelling I do word perfect poetry.

So I shouldn’t have been surprised when I started singing.  It was a song with words that were messages for me in song form.  The words just flowed and flowed.  Guidance I needed was coming through thick and fast.  I stopped the car and put my recording device on my phone so I could capture the information coming through.  It was incredible.

The Upstairs never cease to amaze me, later that night part way through delivering my Grow Your Own Abundance Group Programme on line my voice went croaky and I starting channelling a message for an attendee the ironic thing was it was money advice from her grandfather which was the subject we were covering at the time on the programme.

I love the connections I have and I know we can all connect; it is far easier than you think.  If you would like to spiritually develop in the same why I do with my support Angel Club is now open and all can be done from the comfort of your own home.